Yeah, I should be so lucky...

Im not angry. Just a little upset. I won't be agressive towards anyone about it, I just really need a show of support...

I finally drew something, and am about to upload it.

Oh right. The thing I was depressed about.

It happened again. The girl I'm dating (and even though its online, it still hurts like a mother-f$%&er) found someone she loves, besides me. Oh, by the way, this happens after her parents decide that she shouldnt be having online relationships. She says she still loves me, and I do believe her... But its going to hurt to sit by and watch her act this way with another person... Maybe Im just being selfish.. After all, I just want her to be happy. If she's happier with someone else, then so be it. I still love her dearly, but something changed.. A small peice of me died. Again. Hmm... I wonder why I don't just fall to peices with how many times this has happened to me.

Anyway, I have no reason to complain or whine, because I hurt someone very close to me too... I don't deserve sympathy, so don't tell me that "It's going to be ok". It may, or it might not. We'll see.

All I can do is apoligize to you, Olivia... This would have never happened with you.. Damn it... I can't do anything right...

But, back to the main point. I would like to hear what you have to say.

Words of anger at my bitchiness right now are appreciated. Sympathy, however, is not.

Anyway again, here is a poem that someone wrote. Tell me what you think, and I'll pass on the words if they are kind.

[b][i]I walked along, alone...
I treaded a lonely path, alone...
When I stopped and saw a wall of glass,
And my heart told me to go,
I saw the face of a boy,
A soul wandering, like myself,
I approached him and our eyes met,
My heart stopped
And from then on I knew,
That this would last,
That this would be a promise eternal...

From then on I knew,
That this would last a lifetime,
That this would be a promise eternal...

The world fights to keep us apart,
But I know in my heart,
I must keep fighting for your embrace,
Although we live miles apart,
Its like you never left my side,
And when darkness comes on,
Its like I can feel your hand in mine...

From then on I knew,
That this would work out in the end,
That this would be a promise eternal,
From then on I knew,
That this was more than just a dream,
That this would be a promise eternal...

So be at my side, tonight,
In this long and lonely dark,
Let me rest my eyes
as I lay next to you,
Lay your hand in mine,
And let me know,
That from then on,
That this will last,
This is a promise,
This is a promise, eternal...

This is more than just a dream,
This is a promise eternal...[/b][/i]